So you want to know a bit about me?
I am currently 42 years old, married with two wonderful daughters. I also have three dogs (2 Pomeranians and 1 Jack Russell Terrier), 1 cat, and 1 rat.
I work full time in the Information Technology field supporting Microsoft products. I also dabble in Social Business.
The purpose of this blog…
I’ve struggled with my weight my whole adult life. I have also battled depression on and off as well as low self esteem. I don’t remember what it’s like to be under 200 lbs as I haven’t been there since high school. I was once a hefty 403 lbs. that was early 2009. I did have weight loss surgery in December of 2009. I had the vertical sleeve gastrectomy. I don’t talk much about it because I was not very successful. I got down to a low of 253. That was the summer of 2011. My dad passed away in November of that year. It brought me down, but come the new year of 2012 I started counseling and started back at the gym and was doing pretty well. In March of 2012, my dear sister friend went missing one evening and the next day was found face down in a nearby pond. Her death tore me up worse than most. I fell into a deeper depression. Her death brought back memories of my moms and dads death and I felt so incredibly overcome by grief. I then started thinking of my own life and death. I had some nightmares. I started counseling weekly focusing on grief.
Late summer of 2012 I had my first panic/anxiety attack. It scared me. I was off work for a while. By this time the weight started coming back. In late March of 2013 I had another attack. This time I ended up in the hospital to make sure it wasn’t a stroke or something. This was even scarier than the first. I decided to stop focusing on weight loss and focus instead on my mental well being and getting better sleep.
I’m now back up to a horrifying 312 lbs at the time of this writing.
It’s time to get my health back in order. It’s not going to be easy and I will need some cheerleaders and support.
I find writing to be therapeutic as well so I’m hoping this will be a good outlet.
Thanks for stopping by.